Just to refresh you my blog name came from my son Jack. Three years ago he asked me that question. "I know you have cancer but are you sick".  He saw me walking around and not laying in bed and was wondering how I felt.

I hope nobody ever gets cancer. It is an experience that forever changes one's life forever. I really have not had a big physical change. My appearance is about the same as it has been for most of my adult life. The change has been emotional and changes to what I can do physically.

Emotionally it is a roller coaster. Highs and lows. One Dr. appointment the number is low which is good. The next Dr. appointment they think they found a new nodule. Next your in a tube getting scanned and then crying in a changing room. That was the last time I went to a doctor by myself. A roller coaster.

Nights are the worst. Pain, fever and loneliness. I was never a person who was afraid of the dark. Now however, I do not like sleeping in a completely dark room. I like to leave a fairly bright light on now. It bugs my wife I am sorry to say.

It is interesting to see people's reaction to me out in public if they have not seen me in a while. Shock that I am still kicking is a typical response. Then there is the person who says: "So you look good. They must have got it all huh?" I typically respond well not yet but we are fighting it. or I say the doctors tell me they will never get it all but can keep me alive for a awhile. I try to avoid the subject if at all possible.

My faith in  Jesus as my savior gets me through a lot. I have had several full body scans. It takes a long time without being able to move. I pray. For myself,  my family, people who I know who have cancer, and the list goes on. Let me say that I did not "find Jesus" after being diagnosed with cancer. I have been waling with the LORD for a while.

My father-in-law's funeral was last Friday. After the service we ate. A woman walked up to my wife and said "wow Charlie looks good for someone who is dying".  A roller coaster.

Tomorrow or the next blog will talk about fellow believers and their responses.